If you’ve been here before, you probably remember there actually being, well, stuff here. You’re not actually suffering from a psychotic break, you are in fact remembering correctly. The stuff that was here before I’ve thrown into the freezer because it’s simply not going to fit into the future of this lovely blog.
Yes, I am in fact resurrecting this place from the dead. Which may seem a step backwards in terms of progress, but I have my reasons. I’ll touch on those reasons in an incredibly vague manner that will leave you frustrated and with my privacy as intact as possible.
For awhile now, I have been unwell. Not in a coughing or sneezing sort of way, but the sort of way that simply isn’t going to be going away. Whether or not I ever really compound on that topic in the future, I’ll consider it, but for now, you’ll just have to be satisfied with that. I’ve been dealing with this on two fronts, the physical and the mental. On the one hand, I’m not going to let a chronic illness rule over my life and define me. However that being said, it can limit you and you will have to work in it’s boundaries. And that push and pull has been what’s been beating me into the ground the most lately. I’ve had to learn to do what I can, so this is me doing exactly that.
I started out here, writing reviews. Moved onto streaming, podcasting, youtubing, more review writing (but for other people). I loved it! I still love it! But it’s come to a bit of a grinding halt. Thing is, I still want to do it. But here’s the problem, it’s a mix of two things, compounding on top of one another. First, is the problem itself, it’s making my speech and thoughts really slow. I have trouble getting words out, thinking of words, it’s all incredible frustrating. It’s the same with typing, but I’ve got more time, I can take lots of breaks. These few hundred words have already taken me at least an hour, and this is just a flow of thought. If I needed to do something like write a game review, I’m not sure I could actually put together something that made coherent sense. Obviously recording a video, while speaking, is even further out of the question. One of the medications I’m currently taking makes this even worse. It’s still to be determined if I’ll be remaining on this medication.
So what am I doing here? Well, I can’t just crawl in a hole and die. I still want to do the things I enjoy. So that’s why I’m here. I’m still going to play games. I may not be able to make some sort of proper review, but I can tell you my thoughts, even if they’re broken and incoherent. Even if it’s only a hundred words, or a list, or a couple fun screenshots, or a haiku about some weirdo I met in the wasteland of Fallout 4. This blog will just be a hodge podge of gaming crap. And hopefully, practice and perseverance will over time slowly make it all a little bit better until I’m back to all the other things I love to do.
But for now, expect to find spelling errors, weird grammar, mis-used words, and the like. Though spell check is saving you from most of the spelling errors. ♥ U spell check.
And to anyone reading this, thanks for sticking around. <3